February 16, 2008 at 3:14 am · Filed under Uncategorized
i miss you.i used to know everything about you.but things have changed.i have a lot of questions.so many left unanswered.i know i have a little spot in ur life now.i used to be a big part of that.now all i have are queries.what do u like,what makes you happy,what makes u busy,what are ur interests,whats ur fave fud,where u hangout,what makes u cry,what makes u smile.who are ur friends now…i cant blame you.i pushed u away.it’s late when i realized we’re in different worlds already.new circle of friends.when i try to fit in ur world, the more i feel far from you.far from what makes u happy.but id rather see u happy with them.id rather see u smiling,laughing ur heart out,having fun with them.than seeing u sad when ur with me..you dont like the new me.i dont like it either.i wish i could bring back the old times.i wish we’re kids again.laughing in the rain.swimming.playing street games.and even picking fights with other kids,wahahha..all of it,when we had fun together.when i made u happy.selfish huh.but im not.
and so id rather let u be with ur new friends.coz i cant take care of u.coz i always make u feel taken for granted.im sorry..
and so i wont keep u for myself.id rather see ur blissful face rather than see u pissed with me.id rather see u happy..
still..
im just here in case you need me.. 
February 9, 2008 at 9:49 pm · Filed under Uncategorized
i talked to a sis last friday.she’s been asking me for a meeting with her since last week, but i always declined.i was busy these past few days.on second thought,i’ve been busy since time immemorial.haha.that’s why my bestfriend got sick of it.i guess.
that friday wasn’t different.it’s still a busy day.but i had to talk to her.i need that talk.i was hungry for it.no mind with the recits.no mind with the backlogs.i just felt i had to meet up with her.
and so i went.9am.i grabbed my Torts book and Regina folder and hurriedly left.i was thinking of what my schedule would be for that day while walking.what time my class would be, how many hours vacant, what time i could eat, what class would i skip if i wouldnt be able to study.blah blah blah.too many things to take note of.
and then i saw her.patiently waiting for me.and then we started talking about things..stuffs…friendship,anger,dreams,love,frustrations,happiness, family,faith,silliness, simple things..
then it hit me.im not THAT busy at all.just a case of a cluttered mind.
a cluttered life.a life full of unimportant things to worry about.that there are far more important things in life than being stuck with things that you can’t change,things that you can’t control.
that im too busy, unmindful of things that teaches us just from letting it happen,things that touches us real deep..
and i just have to let go and let God..
thanks sis.that was a big help.i don’t mind the tears and the puffy eyes.the peace of mind you gave me was all worth it.
keep the faith.
